the BREAK -UP

HEllO. ok so honestly I don't know how to start this entry off. I have a lot to say but I dont want hear the other persons mouth about it later. Man eff it. I`m going in. I mean its not like he cares for me or my feelings much. WARNING: THIS PARTICULAR ENTRY IS JUS TO LET ME VENT. IDC HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY OR HOW YOU FEEL AFTER READING IT. so i was once in a lie called love. or better yet an even bigger lie called a relationship. The only truth in the relationship was the feelings that got hurt. now im not goin to sit here and pretend to the perfect girlfriend because. we lost trust and then lost eachother. when he was serious i thought it was bullshit and played him to the left hardd ! and now im serious he's doin the same. and i dont think i can stick around for it. i cant be the at home gf --> you kno the girl you want and pay attention to when youre home, but when you go to school its like i never mattered better yet existed... you know what im goin to cut this portion of the blog short i can already read the text & hear his mouth about this.

so moving along. yesterday i went to the movies with one of my friends from school , we went to see sherlock holmes. i thought i was goin to fall asleep in the movie cuz it would be boring but to be completely honest i loved every second of it .. i've actually considered reading some of the books because of the movie. My friend fell asleep like 45 mins into the movie and woke up at the very end which kinda made me happy. cuz i dont really know if he likes me as more than a friend but i only see him as jus a 'bro' so that made the movie even more enjoyable lOL [is that bad..smh idk]

6 stars =]

that was the end of my day . ohhh yeaa my big cuzzo TONi-RoCHELLE FINALLY got me some flat black boots lol and a HAIR bLOW DRYER with a COMB attached! oohhh yessss. i love me some herrr . she's the bestest. im gonna hate when she leaves back for school mann. im gonna hate when all my cousins leave. ugh. at least Karl [@kgl757] will still be here. and before Caesar leave we must make amends. this silent fued is no good for the fam. i mean we're fam. we can get mad. the problem is we're not allowed to stay mad no matter who is right or wrong. right i love them all. we're thee coolest archer - ford - louis' ever.

byeee--

oh i have a poem for u guys today.

the beautiful torture of love

See this is lovely. Fine. Cup of sun

Blueprint etched in imperfection

air brushed in fate

open heart surgery while im awake

kill has triumphed at this pace

this death is welcomed purely by taste

feelings knee deep in combat

so take me with my arms broken reaching

take me with popped eye vessels looking crushed peeping

take me with ears sandwiched between ignorance

take me back... to ...where ...I felt good

and being loved didnt feel like despair but endurance

didnt feel like I was walking on eggshells to the finish

searching for skies the limit to the diminish

when the limit is 2 steps beyond my finger tips still feeling the same

I thought love was fine... lovely... Beautiful

but it tortures me so long I have come to enjoy the pain.

love creates an "us" without destroying a "me"

-unknown